HOLY FUCK

Hi from Taiwan my hotel rocks there are like 5 computers available all day in the lobby with free internet.

AND HOLY MOTHER OF JESUS

I GOT A KINGS INTERVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

14th Jan - Queen Marys
19th Jan - UCL
26th Jan - Imperial
4th Feb - Kings

YAY YAY YAY YAY

:):):) Imperial here I come!!

I am pleased to inform you that you have been made an offer for your chosen course in Biomedical Science.

WOOOHOOOOO IMPERIAL INTERVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ps I got a neck/shoulder/back massage today. My back aches now.

Life now is pretty boring, directionless, meaningless..there's only so much one can shop for/so many different types of cuisine/so many tv shows. I've just about memorized every episode of CSI ever shown on AXN, as well as the Nanny, even Oprah is losing her appeal. Suddenly I wish I'm taking SATs or something, anything, so that my brain stops rotting into nothingness.

Yesterday I bought this book (basically a collection of vignettes) called "Reasons for and Advantages of Breathing". I think I'll start reading it tonight, God knows the title resonates with my life now. And perhaps even if I don't find any reasons in the book, I can commiserate with the sad, poignant lives of the antagonists. For some strange reason I'm now drawn to short stories/I now lack the stamina and patience to sit through a 500 page book and have my emotions meander along with the plot.

I am now gainfully employed!:)

Memories of prom itself have crashed and burned themselves in light of the memories of afterwards, some of which I'd like to burn but never will I think. Helipad was a snoozefest and supperclub was..barefoot dancing with people on a floor with drinks ice vomit sweat godknowswhatelse, beer, drinks, dance, save drunk people, etc. Stumbled back to the hotel on a cab ride that was 30s even the uncle mocked us and bathed, by the time it was 6am everyone completely sobered up and some slept (and refused to wake up) and the rest of us just stoned around and talked, I'd like to remember that as how things ended actually.

Just slept from 10am to 2pm, woke up for lunch, and back to sleep from 4pm-6+++am, I'm slowly turnin nocturnal.

I'm running on zero hours of sleep and loads of crap and I just fall asleep for one #&*(@$)*#* hour and I am freaking awoken by a call from my ex-teacher. How MARVELLOUS. UGH.

I am only going to listen to 10 songs at a time from now on cos I never want to have to re-sync 2000+ songs to my freaking iphone plus all the apps plus all the videos plus all the misc settings and shit. Omg. Waste of my life.

Okay I totally was not in the mood to study bio till I got the UCL interview NOW I AM GOING TO STUDY SO I CAN GET IN BYEBYE

So close, I just have to tread carefully now.

Tomorrow can either make or break my dream. Scratch that, dreams.

Past few days have been good, shopping and catching up on Gossip Girl and the like..lo and behold before I know it it's Monday night! Two nights ago I was sitting here telling myself to read one chapter before I slept I sit here again tonight saying that same thing, haha.

Mr Ng rocks my socks srsly he is always too funny:

# Place extra set of school uniform/shoe in a water-proof plastic bag so that you may change should you be wet.
# Useful to place your lecture notes/tutorials etc in a plastic bag within your school bag so that they are not wet on your journey (so that you can revise for next subsequent paper).

This exam business is so exhausting, and yesterday was..wow. Always knew I was bad at econs so perhaps I wasn't quite as shocked but still it was like..wow. Went for sushi!! with my mom afterwards and then got home at 630, watched oprah!! and went to sleep because my hand literally hurt. Today is going to be the biggest waste of my life..it's like..wtf am I going to study?!?!?! Technically I could have taken both papers yesterday, and I've already read our painfully inferior notes 10 times this week I think. And yeah I could study Bio apps now but I can't cos the econs is kind of still in my mind from yesterday (I hope) and doing anything else now will screw that up. Ugh. And I can't slack, because I'll feel bad:(

I just saw this on Oprah after Sandra mentioned last night's episode. Yeah Aishwarya Rai is pretty, but come on look at this:



Omg seriously!!!!!! He's a real polo player too. Way2kool4skool.

Stop mocking me Jess. I know you are laughing to yourself somewhere in bukit BATOK but HAH ILL HAVE THE LAST LAUGH when my husband looks like this and you are living with your 9 cats.

MY LAPTOP DIED. And ressurected itself after I moaned and groaned to it haha.

I just watched the latest episode of glee! I remember watching Wicked in London, Defying Gravity was the most electrifying end to a 1st half ever. Funniest musical ever, so wanna watch it again.

Omg I don't know why but I can't bring myself to snap back into the studying mood again I'm back to where I was 1 week before As, where I watched TV for hours on end. Then last last week I managed to force myself into studying and I successfully averted coming online from Tuesday-Thursday but on Friday I was just like okay slack a bit and whambamhereiam (wow it rhymes) and then ytd I watched somemore tv but I did do a bit of econs and today!! omg today..okay still like 6 hours till bedtime Imma off to...read my econs notes for the 20th time (I mean what else can I do?!!?!?!?!?!! When my tutor doesn't give me anything else to read and when I dont wanna do essays and okay byebye)

Come on big money 5As imperial college and medicine.

Whether or not I can find a rich husband and fulfil my lifelong dream comes down to today. Okay actually not really today, more importantly next Wednesday and Thursday. If I can survive past this week (actually just tomorrow) and still remember HIV protease and acetylcholinesterase and phosphodiesterase and aminoacyl-tRNA synthetase and peptidyl transferase then I can do anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait for Christmas and Europe and shopping and did I mention I'm going to work at the popcorn stand at Universal Theme Park? Haha.

Choice shots from graduation ytd:


Genius, slacker, slacker, genius


Friends for like..8years or maybe 9 wwowwzx. Time flies.






Million dollar couple.















Okay the rest of them pictures are on facebook. I'm still burnt out, got home late ytd, slept even later this morning, sat through the P's address, came home, did some work, watched this strangely engaging show called Phonebooth and spent damn long trying to upload pictures HAHAHA.

I feel like I'm on the brink of a nervous breakdown, like every sense I have is at once heightened but watered down. Today I got home at 3 and everything was okay-normal, I read econs till 430 and then all of a sudden my heart started pounding really, unnaturally fast (not in a fluttery way but like a cardiac arrest way) and I suddenly felt like I couldn't breathe. 6 hours later and some 4 hours of MTV marathon later I thought I'd feel better, but no my heart is pounding faster and faster than ever and I really feel like it's sinking deeper and deeper down my chest like I'm hovering about the edge of collapse..I think this is called burn out. I've never wanted anything so badly in my life before.

Wow they really moderated everything, my 60 for econs is now an A, and my GP's a B. Thank you God.

Here I am leaving you clues. I am singing now while Rome burns. We are all just trying to be holy. We are all going forward, none of us are going back.

Time flies, just yesterday we were leaving the hospice for the last time before prelims and now here I am, we'll be going back from next week onwards; and we've already gotten back four out of five subjects, I am a lucky lucky girl I know. I'm looking forward to the hospice, I'm almost certain I won't recognize any of the patients there anymore, perhaps that good for us all, it'll be a fresh start, an opportunity to leave all our hangups at the door once more, something that could never ever happen elsewhere.

Post-prelims have been quite fun, last week I spent everyday from Tuesday-Sunday (except Friday) in Orchard, I got pretty sick of the shops pretty fast probably because I already bought one of everything from everywhere and consequently pretty much spent close to a thousand I might think, I saw these pretty nude heels from Steve Madden and these Aldo boots and this really pretty maxi dress that May promises to wear with me to Sentosa and okay I am so materialistic go me. But so much time = too much thinking time.